Today was pour paint on some apples day

Everything Relates for Me

    My parents used to go out on date nights every friday night. Dad would come home from work, an hour drive, and then pick up my mom and head back to Duluth for the evening. This was a time I loved. In the summer mom kept a green house for a few years.  Starting in March we had to keep the heat at a certain temperature, circulating the air with fans from the front to back. It was a large operation and every three hours someone had to be checking the fans, the temp and the stove.

    I remember one night when mom and dad were gone in Duluth and us kids were home watching "Lawrence of Arabia." (Date nights allowed for long double features! Something always to fight over). It was warm spring MN evening and the sun was setting. Tab and I walked out to the greenhouse to check the temp and I walked around looking around all that was budding on the shelves. And that moment it hit me how much I loved growing things. And how much I loved being on a farm. I was branded.



Tonight reminded me of that. It was a lovely evening to be outside.

I am trying to catch light. I'm not as excited about these,  but I'm learning not to be so dramatic in my gestures. And in doing so, I believe my actions are becoming more meaningful.

... or maybe it's just working with plastic that is reminding me of greenhouses. :)

How to Visually Create Barriers

Today I had high hopes of conquering the lighting studio. Fourth time is the charm right? I had sheets, I had duck tape, vines... the works. But an hour later I was staring in dismay at a stupid piece of fabric taped clumsily to the wall still with partial wrinkles in it. I packed and left. I was done. Frustrated and sick.

I went to Home Depot. For some reason if I get overwhelmed this is the one place that still gives me hope in Memphis. It's almost a chemical reaction. I love to wander the isles of paint, tape, nails, and hope one day that I will have space to fix up and call mine.

Today I tried the one last idea in my mental book; A simple drop sheet.

This past week and a half, I have tried to make wall paper, studio paper, shower curtains, and even bed sheets work.

Guess what! lol, I think I'm going to be ok.

I want to start expressing what it feels like to be depressed. As a kid I used to think that I was always

underwater. I like how the  drop sheet looks. And I love to work outside.

I can't help but be happy with myself.

You know that projector thing I was doing? Well, it really wasn't working with strobes.  So I undertook the task of trying to do without the projector. And I believe I am on the right track!! Not  really happy with the compositions in general, but I feel  oddly accomplished in myself. I know I am accumulating tools for the future.

I set my camera at 4000shutter speed and 8 Aperture.

The strobes were flashing at .8th second and around 11 Aperture on the wall.

I think this means that the camera was reading about 16th of the light the strobes were producing. . . I might be totally off here.

But we need to take into account that I was two stops away from the wall in order to obtain a total silhouette. .. So 18 Stops total? As my mother would say, "Heavenly days!"


So the more you see of me, the less the difference in stops.

THIS IS A CUTOUT

THIS IS ME

working critique

Crossed processed slide film... ugh. 

Posting work for a working critique tomorrow

 

Light 1

Light 2

Light 3

Light 4

I was disappointed in myself today. I really want to start using these lights more to my advantage. How to make shadows with NO slide projector. :) 

 HIP! HIP! ONE MORE MONTH FOLKS.

After a lovely Easter dinner, "Well, I'm going to go find a busy intersection and look like a fool." Vickie, "Oh my god, don't get hit."

What a busy weekend! From one assignment to another, and another.

I'm really humored by my ideas of studio lighting. Who the heck decides that they are going to light shadows... hand raised over here. I realize that I always assume that light is like using interior wall paint, but just a little thinner, right?

 "Well, we'll add a touch of light over here to highlight these balloons, then we'll add the projector light
over here, and oh crapahoy.



Balloons like nice!

Projector stealing the magic and the show.




So this is what I ended up with. I don't like balloons anymore. I do like shower curtains.

My arch enemy of all time is Photoshop. Whenever I do stuff like this, I think to myself, "What can I do that it cannot". I'm still working on this problem, but I like the idea of letting the shadows of these figures star as well. I would have liked to see more cars and people, but for the sake of taking the day off, I didn't stress.

CLONING